no one is where I expect them to be

all my pieces have shifted.

My household moves in burst and stops

  two

    steps

       forward

      three

     steps

back

        four

           steps

            forward

           one

        step

  back

always moving but somehow standing still 

I am queen of nothing and no one

I am a servant only to the wind and

to the echoing chamber of my own heart 

if I stand still I will die

if I keep moving I will be devoured

everything and nothing

nibbling away bit by bit

until

nothing

is

left

my voice is raw as if I have been shouting

but I’ve been silent for hours

know any fics about sherlock being amazed by john’s over averaged cock?

alexxphoenix42:

Hey lovely, try these fics on for size!

John Watson’s Big Dick

http://alexxphoenix42.tumblr.com/post/151975782703/john-watsons-big-dick

ADD ONS

Lucky by beltainefaerie, 3 k, explicit. Sherlock goes searching for some
specific porn based on what he’s deduced about John and gets far, far more than
he bargained for.

time for you and time for me by
missselene, 13 k, explicit. Sherlock and John are finally together and are
about to consummate their relationship. But they both have issues they’ll need to
overcome before they can have the first time they deserve. (Virginlock, John
has a huge cock.)

The John Watson Fan Club
by bookjunkiecat, 7 k, mature. John Watson’s penis takes on all of London.
Sherlock has no idea John is packing serious heat. Basically John’s dick takes
him on adventures.

I suck at self promotion but here goes:

merindab:

tiger-in-the-flightdeck:

beltainefaerie:

Want to see more romantic but not sexual ace fic where the ace character really doesn’t have to have sex? Do you really like the tension of topsy turvy D/s dynamics where the one controlling the action is actually a masochist directing their own pain? Or genderqueer omegaverse that doesn’t follow the usual Alpha/omega dynamic, but is still fucking hot?

Of course I can write domestic things, or regular D/s dynamics or even a case fic, but if you have a request you are unsure someone would want to take on, try me!

I’m still cheap. Please bid!

I want to kick this administration’s butt and my funds are limited.

I love Bel’s writing, and anyone who can afford to bid definitely should! She’s also my go-to Beta reader and always does a stellar job. Any coherence in my writing is larger due to her, so if you have a fic you need a sharp eye to go over, she’s also auctioning that talent off as well.

Bel betas for me too. She’s awesome!

beltainefaerie – FTH Contributor Page

fth2018offerings:

See beltainefaerie’s works here!

To contact the seller before bidding, please email beltainefaerie@gmail.com

If you have a very specific prompt and are not flexible, it’s best to contact the seller before bidding, even if it fits within their listed parameters. If you are asking for a specific kink, always ask first.

Charities these auctions benefit: Bidder’s choice of any of the listed groups

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beltainefaerie’s offerings:


beltainefaerie Auction #1

Type of fanwork: fanfiction
Subtype(s): N/A
Fandom(s): Sherlock (all)
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: Less than 5K words
Especially interested in: I write mostly johnlock, but am happy to attempt other pairings or polygroups. I love writing consensual BDSM and have life experience as a dungeon monitor at a local club. I am also willing to write fluffy domestic things, and sometimes those are all in the same fic!
Unwilling to address: Sherlock/women unless it is part of an OT3 such as johnlockary. I read him as gay or homoromantic ace and I can’t seem to write him well with women unless another man is also involved. The only fetishes I don’t work with are scat and kids. I don’t write teacher/student AUs.
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.

beltainefaerie Auction #2

Type of fanwork: fan labor (such as betaing, brit-picking, translating, etc.)
Subtype(s): Betaing
Fandom(s): Any
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: 10 – 20k words
Especially interested in: I will beta nearly anything, but in case it is of particular value, I will mention that I have been in poly relationships for a decade and engage in BDSM/ volunteer as a trained dungeon monitor in a club. I actually have practical experience in poly dynamics and BDSM (i.e. negotiation, safety, needles, knife play, rope work, wax, fireplay, electrical play, as well as impact play, such as canes, floggers, varied aftercare styles, etc.)
Unwilling to address: I don’t do scat or pedophilia, or student/teacher AUs
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.


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beltainefaerie – FTH Contributor Page

fth2018offerings:

See beltainefaerie’s works here!

To contact the seller before bidding, please email beltainefaerie@gmail.com

If you have a very specific prompt and are not flexible, it’s best to contact the seller before bidding, even if it fits within their listed parameters. If you are asking for a specific kink, always ask first.

Charities these auctions benefit: Bidder’s choice of any of the listed groups

(See full list)

beltainefaerie’s offerings:


beltainefaerie Auction #1

Type of fanwork: fanfiction
Subtype(s): N/A
Fandom(s): Sherlock (all)
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: Less than 5K words
Especially interested in: I write mostly johnlock, but am happy to attempt other pairings or polygroups. I love writing consensual BDSM and have life experience as a dungeon monitor at a local club. I am also willing to write fluffy domestic things, and sometimes those are all in the same fic!
Unwilling to address: Sherlock/women unless it is part of an OT3 such as johnlockary. I read him as gay or homoromantic ace and I can’t seem to write him well with women unless another man is also involved. The only fetishes I don’t work with are scat and kids. I don’t write teacher/student AUs.
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.

beltainefaerie Auction #2

Type of fanwork: fan labor (such as betaing, brit-picking, translating, etc.)
Subtype(s): Betaing
Fandom(s): Any
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: 10 – 20k words
Especially interested in: I will beta nearly anything, but in case it is of particular value, I will mention that I have been in poly relationships for a decade and engage in BDSM/ volunteer as a trained dungeon monitor in a club. I actually have practical experience in poly dynamics and BDSM (i.e. negotiation, safety, needles, knife play, rope work, wax, fireplay, electrical play, as well as impact play, such as canes, floggers, varied aftercare styles, etc.)
Unwilling to address: I don’t do scat or pedophilia, or student/teacher AUs
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.


Thanks for participating in Fandom Trumps Hate!

beltainefaerie – FTH Contributor Page

fth2018offerings:

See beltainefaerie’s works here!

To contact the seller before bidding, please email beltainefaerie@gmail.com

If you have a very specific prompt and are not flexible, it’s best to contact the seller before bidding, even if it fits within their listed parameters. If you are asking for a specific kink, always ask first.

Charities these auctions benefit: Bidder’s choice of any of the listed groups

(See full list)

beltainefaerie’s offerings:


beltainefaerie Auction #1

Type of fanwork: fanfiction
Subtype(s): N/A
Fandom(s): Sherlock (all)
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: Less than 5K words
Especially interested in: I write mostly johnlock, but am happy to attempt other pairings or polygroups. I love writing consensual BDSM and have life experience as a dungeon monitor at a local club. I am also willing to write fluffy domestic things, and sometimes those are all in the same fic!
Unwilling to address: Sherlock/women unless it is part of an OT3 such as johnlockary. I read him as gay or homoromantic ace and I can’t seem to write him well with women unless another man is also involved. The only fetishes I don’t work with are scat and kids. I don’t write teacher/student AUs.
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the “ target=”_blank">bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.

beltainefaerie Auction #2

Type of fanwork: fan labor (such as betaing, brit-picking, translating, etc.)
Subtype(s): Betaing
Fandom(s): Any
Highest rating creator will work with: E (explicit)
Length: 10 – 20k words
Especially interested in: I will beta nearly anything, but in case it is of particular value, I will mention that I have been in poly relationships for a decade and engage in BDSM/ volunteer as a trained dungeon monitor in a club. I actually have practical experience in poly dynamics and BDSM (i.e. negotiation, safety, needles, knife play, rope work, wax, fireplay, electrical play, as well as impact play, such as canes, floggers, varied aftercare styles, etc.)
Unwilling to address: I don’t do scat or pedophilia, or student/teacher AUs
Notes:

Minimum Bid: $5

Auctions run from 8 January 2018 (Midnight, EST) to 14 January 2018 (Midnight, EST). Bids before or after this period are invalid and will not be counted.If you would like to bid on this auction:

Step 1: Check the bidding spreadsheet to find out what the current high bid is. (Note: It may take up to five minutes for a bid to appear.)

Step 2: Fill out the seller’s bidding form with a bid that is higher than the current high bid. If you want to make it harder for someone to outbid you, bid higher! You will NOT be notified if someone outbids you, so please bookmark this page and check frequently. You will only be notified if you are the high bidder after the auctions end.


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I achieved my 2017 goal of posting at least 12 things on my AO3 they weren’t all big things, but I definitely finished/added to some WIPs that had been sitting around a long time.

I posted multiple things each month through April then got crazy busy with work and my family and didn’t post again until November, but still, on average, I did meet the goal.

As of the start of 2018, I have 69 fics started in my google drive and I think at least 3 more on my phone. I am going to keep my writing goal the same, to post at least an average of at least one thing a month. It could be a chapter to a WIP or it could be a whole new fic, but at least 12 for the year. If there is any work you’d particularly like to see me work on, message me here. I can attempt to steer the muse that direction. Same if you have a prompt you’d like me to attempt. Feed the muse.

Dutch Reach Around – beltainefaerie – Sherlock (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Sherlock (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson
Characters: John Watson, Sherlock Holmes
Additional Tags: First Kiss, First Time, Sexuality Crisis, Panic Attack, Happy Ending, Top John, Bottom Sherlock, Reach Around
Summary:

A mistaken turn of phrase turns John’s world upside down.

Dutch Reach Around – beltainefaerie – Sherlock (TV) [Archive of Our Own]