really struggling right now. Ive always been fat except right after doing jenny craig from 4-6th grade. (yep I begged to do a diet like that while still a CHILD)
In my early 30s I had finally accepted living in the body I’ve got. Was finally happy in my skin. then I got pregnant again, lost the baby, got pregnant again and had gestational diabetes. I’ve gained even more weight, depression isn’t helping, and I have to go in for a prediabetes class today. I’m bitter that my family doesn’t have diabetes, everyone is fat and when I had found self love I feel like I suddenly got whomped with what society thinks fat people deserve. My cholesteral: fine. My blood pressure? low side of good, but probably diabetic or leaning towards it.
I can’t help feeling like now doctors are going to take away all the food I like just like my mom did when I was getting too fat as a child. fuck this.
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